money issues.

alright.. so i attempted to use my debit card at the grocery store and it said that i only had $2.65 left when i called the number on the back of the card. i KNOW that i haven't been able to purchase things on dormify or american eagle or victoria's secret. the only place i've been able to purchase things on is amazon. i tried to order something off poshmark and it didn't work either. i'd like to know why in the hell i haven't been able to use MY own money. so either somehow my mom and/or amanda are using my monthly limit on money or someone else is. AND YOU FUCKIN IDIOTS WONDER WHY THE HELL I WANNA GET OUTTA THIS HELLHOLE. when i move- i WILL be switching trustees and probably banks if this shit continues. *GASP* and i CONVENIENTLY can't talk to anyone about this!.. i'm afraid i bug joe but i can't think of anyone who ACTUALLY ANSWERS THE PHONE AND GENUINELY CARES ABOUT ME THAT WILL ANSWER THE PHONE/GIVE ME ADVICE ON WHAT TO DO. the idea that i could tell my therapist about this just came to mind too. i'll probably mention it to ics tomorrow.. i don't know if they'll be able to do much on a weekend. MY ACCOUNT IS NOT EVERYONE'S PLAYPLACE. I DON'T REMEMBER ANY OF MY FAMILY SITTING WITH ME IN THE PASSENGER'S SEAT OF THE CAR ACCIDENT I WAS IN. I DON'T REMEMBER THEM BEING IN COMAS FOR SIX MONTHS OR SUFFERING IN FUCKIN WHEELCHAIRS BECAUSE THEIR FAMILY ENJOYED THE ATTENTION AND SYMPATHY THEY GOT FROM HAVING A "QUADRIPLEGIC IN A WHEELCHAIR" FOR A DAMN RELATIVE. (i remember my grandma describing me to people for attention and sympathy- to make people assume she was caring and supportive to people (which she was- she was just naive.. i mean- it's NOT like she held me up in front of my dad while he was kicking her like my mom did!.. however- she did condone her stupidity and assumed it was because of my mom's brain injury caused by the umbilical chord wrapped around her neck.. i'm convinced nothing is really wrong with the woman though, she's just satan's spawn who acts lazy, so people assume she's mentally disabled). i'm also convinced that my financial worker is either stealing money from me or keeping money from me- so she can look like she's doing her job better than she actually is because she doesn't know how to invest money properly and do her job. why the hell did brian have to move to chicago? he actually cared about my damn money. i don't know what else people expect me to believe after my ONLY damn source of money is blocked for over a month and i can't have transportation to interviews if the debit card DOES work. i also AM going to mexico before my damn passport expires.. SO SHE BETTER MUSTER UP MY MONEY FOR THAT SINCE A YEAR SINCE MY RECENT TRIP IS COMING UP.